As of today, it's been 8 years since my sister died. It's strange how time has passed since then. I feel like it's been slipping by and I've never really recovered my balance fully. I feel like my life has not gone the direction it would have if things had been different.
I know now just how unfair life can be. I know now just how meaningless everything is. I'm a much more bitter person than I probably would have been.
At the same time, I learned about how much I had taken my sister for granted and realized just how much I should appreciate her role in my life. I would not trade the time I had with her simply to avoid the pain of the loss. I will treasure my memories of her.
Sarah McLachlan's "I Will Remember You" is something much like what I'd imagine my sister would be telling me:
I will remember you.
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by,
Weep not for the memories.